Happy Hump Day!

Today is Wednesday and the week is half over. My weeks have been flying by so quickly lately, I feel like I am weeks behind on everything. I know I have scheduled at least ten things for this weekend and I can't even begin to tell you one of them. Where do I go from here and could someone please press the "pause" button?

Last week I had to do something I have never been powerful enough to do, FIRE someone. I would have given back all the keys, all the power, and all the accomplishments that got me here to have not had to do that. It was inevitable that this persons time was long up with our company but ME, I had to fire her! I had to look her in the eyes and tell her that her services were no longer needed and tell her why. I tell you what, there has never been a moment where I wished I was home frolicking in the leaves with my kids rather than be sitting in that chair.

I had to go through the whole week knowing this was going to happen on Friday at 3:30 pm. I could not sleep the night before, I was up all night with an upset stomach. All I could think about was, how is she going to pay rent, will she bounce back from this, who will hire this girl because she truly has the largest chip on her shoulder than anyone that I have ever met, and I know a lot of people. The good (if you will) thing in my eyes is that she does not have a family and she can always file unemployment until she finds another job, right? Well, you would think but why can't I stop thinking about this poor girl I had to fire? Is it always going to be like this or is this just a "first time" feeling? Hopefully, this is the only time I ever have to do something like this. Am I that naive to really think that, NO!

So, other than that I was also PMSing and I was extra emotional. I would feel myself getting very angry and wanting to scream at her from the top of my lungs when she was only trying to defend herself. Thank God his little voice was coming through loud and clear to stay calm and maintain a professional composure. So, I did it and I think I did a good job, if that is possible. I would definitely hate to hear her side of the story though. Ouch!

So, it is a new week and things in the office are crazy! I am doing things I never thought I would do, but loving it. I am learning all the ins and outs of dealing with Insurance Adjusters, and loving it! I am still billing my brains out too at the same time. Man, I never knew I could be this productive and have fun doing it. I think I have finally, after 7 years post-college, decided I am where I want to be and love what I am doing. Who would have thought? I hate that something so horrible for someone else could be such a defining moment for me. Something that was supposed to only be part-time turned in to my new career. God is Good!