Justifications and Epiphanies

So, about a month ago I had a doctor visit and they found a T-Wave abnormality in my heart. As I was meeting with the doctor afterwards he tells me, "Your heart is trying to work overtime to keep up with the extra weight you are carrying around." Ummmmmmmmmmmmm..........What do you say to that? "Yeah, you're right I'm a fat arse and I like my heart being abnormal, it really sets me aside from everyone else. Everyone wants to be original, right?" Yeah, I'm going with, No!

I left the appointment and really just kept trying to justify all of this excess weight I have gained over the years. It is so easy to convince yourself that there are reasons for every piece of chocolate you eat, every glass of wine you drink and every piece of cheesecake that follows a large pasta dinner. I even went as far as telling myself, "Oh, you're ok, every time you go to Starbucks you order the NONFAT peppermint mocha." Then came the, "Wait, I am fine, I just had a baby. I will lose it all sooner or later, ew, there is a Jack in the Box." What?!?! Who says that?

I went through about 7 strings of emotions before reality finally set in. This is my heart we are talking about. Heart disease is the number one killer in women. I was just told I had a heart abnormality, I could die from heart disease. I have two babies at home! There is nothing that has ever whipped me in to shape quicker than that epiphany.

The doctor gave me a great book to read. He gave me a few vitamins and he gave me a journal to start tracking my calories and my daily food intake. I have been religious with all of the vitamins, I have read the book front to back more than once, and the food journal, not so much. I think about doing the food journal everyday. A few times I have actually started the day out writing what I am eating and how many calories it contained. At some point I get too busy and see it the next day when I am thinking about doing it all over again.

I wanted to share the most important thing I have learned. I had never heard this before but I am definitely living proof that it works. You should have consumed 70% of your daily calories by the 7th hour you have been awake. For me, I have eaten 70% of my allotted calories by 1:30 pm. Dinner should be your lightest meal of the day. I always thought it was the other way around. You learn something new everyday.

Today I had my 4-week follow-up and I have lost 11 lbs since my first appointment on April 1st. He was so proud of me. I had another EKG this morning and the abnormality is nearly gone. With the change of lifestyle, and the exercise I am trying to fit in to my nightly schedule, it is working! I am finally losing weight! I am finally (5 months later) back to my pre-pregnancy weight. Now it is time to concentrate on the pre-clomid weight. Ugh!

I was very back and on forth on whether or not I was going to blog about this and then another light bulb went off in my head, this is another way to hold myself accountable.

Every Thursday morning I am going to get on and post my weekly weight loss. I am not looking for a congratulations, or a "good job, Les!" I just want to have a scheduled weigh in and like I said, be held accountable!

Toodles!