Just What I Needed

I know what you're thinking, two posts in one day! Maybe I am a little obsessed already, or maybe I have found a sweet release! I am going with the latter of the two.

So, after my crazy morning I get this much needed email from my Mother in Law and I wanted to share it. I get a ton of these emails and usually delete them before even opening them, sorry Mom. However, this one was sent on the perfect day at the perfect time. I knew this day was going to be my friend. What a sweet reminder. Thanks, Nina!

"Before I was a Mom, I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations. Before I was a Mom, I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night. Before I was a Mom, I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried.. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep. Before I was a Mom, I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much... I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom. Before I was a Mom, I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy. Before I was a Mom, I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay..I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom ."

How perfect is that? It is mornings like these that we ponder every thought that enters our minds. It makes us question, exactly how good of a Mom am I? What kind of a Mom am I through other peoples eyes? Is everything I do in this world subconsciously for my kids? I think so, but is that even healthy? I should add these lines to the above email, "Before I had kids I could have sworn I was sane but have now been proven otherwise." "Before I had kids I could walk around in a bikini and not worry about my arse looking like a titleist golf ball." Before I had kids, wait...was there ever really a "Before I had kids?"

OK, I promise I will leave you alone for the rest of the day. I can not promise that I am not already thinking about what I will blog about tomorrow. Stay Tuned.

Toodles!